Loading...Vic stood alone in the bedroom, staring at the reflection in the full-length mirror as though taking notes. Dark hair, cropped close. Dark eyes, both by nature and by the distant look of loss in them. Full Mediterranean lips in an olive face. Torso covered by a black t-shirt. The leather jacket that went with it was thrown over a chair. Hips and legs clad in tight faded jeans that covered the tops of lace-up boots.
“Yeah, I’m a sight alright,” muttered the well built butch woman. She snorted. Her jeans even bulged as that morning she had automatically donned the strapon she generally wore. Her eyes drifted to the night stand and the picture of her and Marissa. They looked so damn happy there. Marissa, the cute, blonde young femme tucked under her protective arm. Marissa, in her short skirt and heels and low-cut blouse. Marissa, who less than 10 days ago had left Vic a note telling her she was moving back with her old girlfriend. That note had been left not 24 hours after the last time she told Vic “I love you.”
“Shit!” The word exploded from Vic. Moved by a flash of anger, she took two steps and swept the picture from the nightstand. The sound of shattering glass didn’t make her feel any better. She went downstairs to the kitchen closet, got a broom and dust pan and bent to clean it up. Her lips curled in a smile with no joy in them. She did a lot of cleaning for a butch. But Marissa had never done much of it at all.
“Goddamn princess,” Vic muttered as she dumped the broken glass and frame in the garbage. She hesitated, and then defiantly dropped the picture in after it. She took two steps, then turned and reached in the trash can after the picture. A sliver of glass pierced her finger and she swore loudly.
She rummaged through the medicine cabinet, finally getting out a band-aid and some disinfectant. She was an old hand at doctoring cuts and scrapes, having received more than her share of them, mostly from her bike. She went back to the kitchen and stared at the picture. It was where she had dropped it, balanced on the edge of the trash can. She snorted and kicked the lid closed.
Just then the phone rang. Almost eagerly, Vic snatched the handset up. With her mood right now it would be great to tell off some telemarketer.
“What?” She all but snarled.
“Vicky?” came an unfamiliar voice.
Vic was startled. No one but NO ONE called her “Vicky”. Her parents had named her “Victoria” and the relatives who actually still spoke to her used that name, but this wasn’t one of them.
“Who is this?”
There was a pause. Then, “Vicky, its Nora.”
Vic was so surprised she almost dropped the phone. Of all the people that she thought might call, Nora was the very last one. After all, she had said she never would.
The voice was unfamiliar because Vic had only spoken to Nora via text messages on the Internet.
Some eight or nine months ago she had dropped into a chat room.
Supposedly it was for women only, and women interested in other women at that.
Vic had been burned twice in her first month there. Why some guy wanting to pretend to be a woman would actually suggest phone sex was beyond her. Maybe they thought they could convert her or something. Vic had done much better over the years making conversions HER way, but that didn’t lessen the feeling of being taken for a sucker. She really hated that.
So that night she had stayed and listened to the conversation in the room, doing nothing more than throwing in an occasional remark. She had enjoyed the word play. Her attention had been drawn by a woman calling herself Nora44. She hadn’t seen her before, but Vic really enjoyed the quips and teasing remarks with which the woman had laced her conversation. She also seemed to be quite a flirt.
Vic studied the woman’s profile and her picture. Nice picture, that of an attractive but definitely grown woman. Not one of the myriad of 20 year old blondes with big chests that seemed to infest the chat room. Not that she was cynical or anything, but how many women like that needed a chat room to find a date on Saturday night?
When Nora had filled out her profile, she had been very open on some things and ignored some others. She listed simply that she was from “The South”. Vic liked Southern women. She cheerfully admitted her age, the fact that she was a few pounds overweight and that her hair was growing gray. She said nothing about her relationship status or her profession. Vic noted that she did list her sexual orientation as “Bi”.
Watching the conversation with one eye as she studied the profile, she saw Nora made a remark about art. Being interested in art herself, Vic made a comment in the main room to Nora. They chatted for a while before Nora left. When she did so, she made a flirtatious remark to Vic.
The next time Vic saw Nora she said hello and Nora replied with a cheerful “Hi sexy!” Vic had laughed and asked Nora if she was talking to the right person. Nora assured her she was and then began to banter with her. Vic, not normally known for “bantering” found she enjoyed it and they became friends.
Vic learned more about Nora. Nora’s picture was of her face, with just a hint of what appeared to be black lace covering the top of her chest, the garment supported by thin black straps over her shoulders. As they became friends, Vic inquired as to the garment. Nora declined to answer, but the next morning when Vic checked her email she found Nora had sent her another picture.
Curious, she opened it and almost gasped. It was a full length picture of Nora. The outfit turned out to be a black teddy. Nora was wearing it with a pair of black heels, Her back was to the camera and she was looking over her shoulder with a grin, her hands on her hips. Vic nagged her memory for a moment about the familiar pose until she saw the caption. It said “My Betty Grable Pose”.
The next time they chatted, Vic complimented Nora on her picture. Mischievously, she commented on Nora’s deep soulful eyes. Nora replied that the reason her eyes looked so deep was that she had the picture taken without her glasses and she couldn’t see a darn thing. Vic replied that the she didn’t need glasses to appreciate Nora’s legs and where they led.
On other things Nora was resolutely silent. When Vic asked how she had come to have the picture taken, Nora replied it was for “somebody” but wouldn’t say whom. From side comments Vic was certain that Nora had two, possibly three children.
“She’s probably married,” Vic mused to herself once after a chat, which had included some rather brazen flirtation on both their parts. “That would explain her discretion. Or she could be divorced and her sexuality might cause trouble with her children’s custody.” She had finally shrugged her shoulders. “If she wants to tell me she will. After all, she’s a friend, not a lover, even online.”
That had changed during one chat. The teasing had grown intense and they had cyber sex. It wasn’t Vic’s first experience with online sex, but it had been one of the best. Nora was inventive and fun when it came to playing out a fantasy. Still, they were friends. She knew that Nora had a wide circle of pals, many of whom were known for playing online. Vic valued Nora much more as a friend than as an online playmate. To Nora she showed a side she didn’t often reveal, even to herself. A side that was softer, a side that loved romantic poetry. A side that she felt she could trust to the other woman.
When Vic began to date Marissa, Nora was really pleased. Her comment “Everyone should have someone to share their life with”, reinforced Vic’s conviction Nora was married, or at least in a long-term relationship. When Marisa moved in Nora was ecstatic. Vic had stopped coming online shortly after that. Marissa thought it was “stupid”.
Still, she had slipped on to have one final chat and had seen Nora. On a sudden impulse, she had given Nora her phone number.
“I know you said you never let your online and offline lives cross,” she had explained. “But I just want you to have it.”
“Okay, thanks.” Nora had replied.
Vic had really thought nothing more of that night. Things with Marissa were splendid. “Fool,” she scolded herself. She hadn’t seen it coming at all, just been blinded by her infatuation with the pretty femme. She had been burned before, but this time she had really given her heart away.
The same night she had found the note, still in shock, she had just sat down at the computer and logged in for the first time in three months. Several regular chatters had greeted her. One was a friend and Vic had unburdened herself about Marissa. After that, she had not been back to the chat room. She hadn’t seen Nora online. And now she was on the phone.
“Nora? Why are you calling?” Almost before the words were out of her mouth Vic regretted them. Why else would Nora be calling after all?
“Davia told me about Marissa. I’m so sorry, Vic.”
“Did she tell you I’m a basket case or something?” Vic all but snapped.
“No, she didn’t,” Nora replied calmly. “She told me you had a stiff upper lip in place and acted like you were glad to be rid of Marissa. I knew better, of course.”
“Of course.” Vic paused and took a deep breath. Damn she was being bitchy. Nora didn’t deserve that.
Amazingly, Nora laughed. “Yes, of course, you goose. You might be Vic the hard-core butch to the world but I know about the soft center under that crust.” She sobered. “If you didn’t have that soft inside you wouldn’t be hurting. But I know you are, and I was worried.”
“Thank you.” Vic said, meaning the two words. “So,” she tried to change the subject, “So where are you calling from?”
“From a pay phone at a Flash Foods store at Main Street and, what the heck is that other street name? Napier, I think.”
“Main and Napier?” Vic was stunned. “You’re HERE? Here in town? How did you know?”
“Isn’t the Internet a great search tool?” came the reply. “I looked up your area code, and then the location of the prefix. I bet I’m not but a few miles away. Now, how do I get to you?” Nora’s voice really did have a Southern accent that intensified as she talked.
“Nora, are you sure? I mean, I appreciate it but,” Vic stumbled over the words. “You said you would never do this. I mean call, much less suddenly drop by.”
“Yeah, well, so I changed my mind. Now then, directions?”
Still rather stunned, Vic gave directions to her town house. After hanging up, she looked around. Frantically she grabbed the vacuum cleaner and a roll of paper towels and started cleaning up.
In the twenty minutes that it took Nora to get there, Vic hastily picked up the worst of the last week’s mess. She rushed upstairs and made the bed. In the midst of doing that, she stopped to wonder if Nora was going to spend the night, and if so, where? Just what was her up-till-now online only friend really doing?
She heard a car door slam and peeked out the window. It was Nora. And oh my, she was driving a pickup truck. Vic watched as the familiar face hopped down from the driver’s door. She was pretty much exactly as Vic had imagined her. Her hair was cut shorter than the shoulder length she had been wearing in the picture, but other than that she looked the same. She was wearing a light tan pants suit with a plain white blouse. A work outfit, Vic felt. Then the doorbell was ringing and Vic was opening the door.
“Hey you!” Nora greeted her brightly and swept past Vic, leaving her standing in the doorway with a baffled look on her face. She turned and followed her visitor. The other woman dropped a small overnight bag on the floor next to the couch, kicked off her shoes and sat down with her feet tucked under her.
Vic flopped down next to her never before seen friend. “Nora, I repeat. What the Hell are you doing here? You said you would…”
“Never call you or see you, that I would stay online only. Well, you’re my friend and this is an emergency.”
“Emergency?” Vic snorted, hoping she sounded convincing. She thought she did, even maybe a bit to herself. “There’s no emergency. If you’re talking about Marissa, shit, I’m better off without her.”
“Well that’s good to know,” replied Nora, looking Vic dead in the eyes. Vic had the uneasy feeling the smaller woman was not fooled a bit. She decided to change the subject.
“Not that I’m not glad to see you anyway, but what about your family? What did you tell them, especially your,” Vic hesitated. She wanted to say “husband” but damn, she just wasn’t sure. It could be “boyfriend” or “girlfriend” or even just “roommate” or “friend”.
Nora simply sidestepped the question, as she always did. “I’m free and clear until tomorrow night. But I’m not here to talk about me. I want to know about you.”
They talked late into the evening. Vic continued to insist she was just fine and changed the subject every time Nora tried to steer the discussion to Marissa. Finally, Nora yawned and asked where she could crash.
“Upstairs is the bedroom. Take it.” When Nora seemed to hesitate, Vic assured her, “I’ll be fine on the couch. It folds out. Guests first, after all.”
“Okay then,” Nora’s lips curved upwards. She stood, stretched and scooped up her bag. She bent over and kissed Vic on the cheek. Then she bounded upstairs.
Vic touched her cheek. Nora had disappeared so quickly that she hadn’t had time to even consider how else she might have handled the situation. A part of her wanted to follow Nora up the stairs, crush her in her arms and make mad love to her. The other part reminded her that this was a friend, one who had taken a tremendous leap of faith to be a friend and that deserved to be treated with respect.
She took the pillows off the couch and piled them on the floor. She pulled the couch open, sat on the mattress and began to unlace her boots. As she did, the night’s conversation kept running through her mind. Her anger at Marissa stirred again.
“Vicky?” came the soft Southern voice from the stairway. Vic looked over her shoulder and her mouth literally fell open.
Nora was standing on the stairway. She was wearing her black teddy and the matching high heels. She leaned against the wall, one foot a step higher than the other.
“Nora,” Vic heard her voice waver and swallowed, “Are you sure?”
Instead of answering, Nora turned and started up the stairs. Before she disappeared, she stopped and posed as she had for her picture. Then she wiggled her bottom, crooked her finger, and was gone. Vic heard her heels clicking in the upstairs hallway. A somehow remote part of her mind noted that Nora must have waited until she was on the carpeted stairs before donning her heels. Then the rest of her mind took over and she all but bolted up those same stairs.
Nora was standing near the bed. Her face was almost unreadable, with an expression of calm concealing whatever she might have been feeling. She lifted her arms over her head in a gesture of surrender. The blood pounded in Vic’s temples and she cast everything to the winds except her need, her lust and her anger.
She rushed on Nora, catching the smaller woman up in her arms and crushing her against the wall. She kissed her, savagely, taking command of Nora’s mouth and using her tongue to claim ownership. Her left hand grasped the black lace material of Nora’s teddy where it narrowed over her ass. Giving a jerk from her well-muscled arm, Vic pulled the material up sharply. The result was to bunch the teddy like a thin strap between Nora’s legs and in her ass cleft. Vic jerked up and down as though she was using the material as a saw. Marissa liked it rough and for a moment the features of the woman with her and those of her ex-lover seemed to blend.
Nora’s left shoulder strap had fallen down her arm, exposing the top of her small breast, the nipple just peeking through the lace. Vic jammed her hand inside the teddy, taking the breast in her hand and squeezing it hard. She ground her hips on Nora, as though she was trying to drive her strapon through her jeans and into the other woman.
Vic slowed her assault for a moment, pulling her head back to look. She was hurting Nora, she knew it, taking her anger at Marissa out on her friend. Then she felt Nora’s fingers at the front of her jeans, unsnapping and unzipping them, freeing the straining latex cock. She heard the whispered words from Nora.
“Fuck me, you dyke bitch.”
Vic’s hand dropped from Nora’s breast, to be replaced by her mouth. She sucked the small orb in, then released all but the hard nubbin as her hand settled on the soaked strip the teddy had become. Curly hair and the swelling lips of Nora’s pussy were in view already when Vic seized the material and both her hands jerked. There was a popping noise and the teddy fell free from between Nora’s legs.
Vic grasped Nora’s ass in both hands and lifted her off her toes. Pinning her against the wall, she felt Nora’s legs spread to either side of her body. She jammed her hips forward; one, two, then three times. The head of the cock bumped into Nora’s wet pussy. With a satisfied grunt, Vic dug her fingers in Nora’s ass and pulled down hard. At the same time she thrust upwards with her hips and bit down on the nipple she held in her lips.
Nora somehow muffled a scream as Vic impaled her. Vic shook her head back and forth, pulling the nipple and whipping Nora’s breast back and forth before releasing it. Using her grip on Nora’s ass, she turned, setting the smaller woman on the side edge of the dresser. She pushed her back, scattering the few items on the dresser. She grasped Nora’s ankles in each hand, lifting the smaller woman’s legs into the air and spreading her wide open.
Vic slammed into Nora harder than she had ever used anyone. She pulled her hips back until the head of the dildo was just in and then used the full force of her strong hips to ram into the other woman. Her hands tightened on Nora’s breasts. In the back of her mind, Vic knew she might be bruising Nora, but her rage was in control and she couldn’t stop. Somehow the woman beneath her had become some kind of object. The pain, the loss Vic felt; the emotions she didn’t let herself show, were expressed the only way she knew how, by anger.
Vic gritted her teeth as she pounded into Nora. Each time she bottomed out in the other woman’s vagina, the shaped base of the dildo rocked back into her own wet pussy. It rubbed up and down, the friction stimulating her clit and rousing her to even more frenzied efforts. She leaned forward, bending Nora almost into a “U” and bracing herself on the small breasts before her. As the first spasm ran through her body she gave voice to her feelings as though it was Marissa under her.
“Bitch! Slut! Damn you, damn you for leaving me, you fucking cunt!” She gave one more tremendous thrust, the cock completely engulfed in Nora and the base crushing her own clit. She gave one more scream and fell on top of the other woman.
Her heart and breathing began to slow to normal. As though a cloud vanished from in front of her eyes, she realized what she was doing and sprang backwards, pulling the dildo out of Nora. She stood and stared down at the woman stretched out on the dresser. She appeared dazed. There were marks on her breasts where Vic had dug her fingers in and, yes, there were going to be bruises at the very least on the inside of Nora’s thighs.
Vic tore her gaze away. She was butch and could even be domme, but she had never treated anyone like this. Roughness was always preceded by discussion and acceptance. She felt her stomach turn over. Nora had offered herself but Vic felt like she had raped the other woman. On top of everything else, this was too much. She turned and fell onto the bed. Curling herself in a tight ball, she began to cry.
Cry!
She who hadn’t sobbed since she was 13 and had sworn she never would again. And she couldn’t stop. The tears poured from her.
Then a pair of soft arms wrapped around her. She heard a Southern voice say “Shhhhhhhhhhhh, its alright.” She resisted not at all as those arms pulled her over onto her other side and gentle hands pulled her into a warm embrace. Nora rocked her back and forth, touching her short hair and making wordless soothing noises.
Finally the tears stopped. Nora helped Vic stretch out on the bed. Vic felt her boots being unlaced and taken off. Her jeans followed, along with the strapon harness. Then Nora laid down with her again and pulled the sheet over them both.
Vic slowly relaxed and dozed off and on for about an hour. She heard the shower running and roused herself when she felt the bed give way. Opening her eyes, she saw Nora kneeling on the bed beside her. Her hair was still wet and she was wearing one of Vic’s old t-shirts.
“You look a lot better,” smiled Nora.
Vic stifled an urge to roll away from Nora and hide her face. Instead, she sat up and took the other woman’s hands.
“Nora,” Vic hesitated, unsure of how to say what she felt. “I’m so sorry.” She faltered. That sounded so damn trite. She tried to find other words. “I can’t believe I did what I did.”
“Its okay, Vicky.”
“Its NOT okay. Damn it Nora, I hurt you. I called you names. I used you like, like,” Vic trailed off, completely at a loss.
“Like I was Marissa,” Nora replied. She looked at the shocked expression on Vic’s face. “I knew it was probably going to be rough,” she said thoughtfully, “But I must say that I didn’t expect it to get quite as rough as it did. Still,” she looked at Vic, “It did work.”
“What are you talking about? What worked? The sex?”
“No, you goose,” Nora looked at Vic with an expression that mixed equal parts of affection and exasperation. “The sex was actually my last resort. Not that there weren’t parts of it I really enjoyed,” Nora added as an afterthought. “But the whole purpose of this was to break down that damn wall you hide behind.
Vic stared at Nora like she had lost her mind. The other woman plowed on.
“Its funny about online friends. All you have to go on are their words. there are no facial expressions, no voice inflections, no body language. None of the clues you use in real life to determine a person’s feelings. At the same time, there’s nothing to distract you from their words. Vicky, you are one tough butch, and you show your feelings about as much as the average Southern redneck I know.” She grinned and then turned serious again.
“When you started seeing Marissa, a side of you that I knew was there burst out. You were open and laughing and so damn excited, and in love. I was happy for you, you’re a sweet person. Yes, you are, don’t look at me like I have two heads. Then I got news of the breakup. Davia told me you acted like it didn’t bother you at all. I got worried because I was sure you were swallowing your emotions up and knowing you, you’d let them eat you alive before you shared them. You were back in your shell and I knew I’d have to do something to break it and let the hurt out.”
“So I broke my number one rule and came up here. And you really scared me. You were so damn quiet and relaxed and well, shit Vicky, butch. So I took a drastic step and put on that teddy. And it worked. You smashed that shell to pieces. I confess, I didn’t expect you to get that carried away. But I’m glad you did because you finally fell over the edge and let your anger and grief out. There’s only one thing…”
“What?” Vic held her breath. Nora’s face had turned grim and Vic thought “Oh GOD, I did something that really injured her.”
“I think you have permanently put your hand prints on my ankles when you tried to split me in half. One more thrust Vicky, and I think you would have had to make a wish.
They both exploded in laughter and hugged each other. When they calmed down, Nora smiled at Vic.
“I have some bumps and bruises but nothing serious. Really. In fact, you were in a world of your own, but I came twice during that little therapy session.” She giggled. “However I think any curiosity I’ve ever had about being a sub has been answered forever.”
She touched Vic’s face with her fingertips. “Now then, you go to sleep.”
“Will you be here when I wake up?” Vic asked curiously.
“Probably not,” Nora replied. “I have to get home and its a long drive. I’ll catch a nap and get on the road.” She leaned over and kissed Vic on the cheek. “Sleep.”
When Vic woke, the sun was brightly shinning. She was alone in the bed. She listened. The apartment was silent. She took a shower and wandered downstairs. There were two items on the kitchen counter, one a piece of paper. She picked them up and read the letter.
“Hey sexy.” It started and Vic smiled as she recalled Nora’s greeting in the chat room. “You’ll be okay Vicky. And yes, you’ll still be Vic, because that’s who you are. Someone will come into your life who will be a keeper. It’s not me, you’ve always known that I have someone in my life. Just this once I stepped away from that person to help a friend. I know that you understand that I will never be back, and when I get home I will throw away your phone number. If we see each other in the chat room, or anywhere else for that matter, we’ll smile and say hello and walk away. You WILL have a good life, Vicky. I promise.”
The letter was simply signed “Nora”.
Apparently Nora had come back to write the P.S., as it showed signs of having been hastily added on. “By the way, here’s a souvenir for you. Kisses.”
Vic grinned, her heart lighter. She held up the black lace teddy and laughed.
(The End)